Focus has been a problem. Concentration has escaped me. Aloofness towards things around me is missing. And all of this is affecting my work. Its been a hard road for a serious amount of time to get where I am - a position where I can work in a schedule set by me, for clients chosen by me and work in the way I want to.

I wonder if it has led to a lack of discipline - accessibility has made take things and time for granted. I am at a point where getting an hour of absolute concentration is celebrated and needs absolute silence to achieve it. It wasn't so before. It wasn't so a decade ago when I could get in the zone with in 10 minutes and the rest of the world lay forgotten.

Is it simply a decision like everything else in life is? Like, just decide and say - "Okay. This is it. I am going to work carefully and ignore internet, phone calls and whatever else that can distract me."

Let's find out tonight.