I am running away from reality, as fast as i could.
and trying not to look back, so as to prevent my eye from tearing.
Saturday in office..
Saturday, August 1, 2009
I want to think that I don't judge people at their face value. Its ridiculously obvious when my own mind betrays my prejudice. I was at petrol bunk waiting in queue to get my bike filled. A very smartly and fashionably dressed guy pulled up his bike next to me and started at the guy from petrol bunk. The little guy, with nozzle in his hand, looked slightly intimidated with the man who was standing next to me. Good looking asshole, I thought and frowned. Why do people expect a kind of a different treatment in a public place? I am so used to this so called "literates" in my company who break queues all the time; be it food court or filing for tax or waiting for your turn to take coffee from the machine. This is one attitude that has pissed me off from time to time and this is also one attitude which makes me vocal about the said attitude. Its irritating when people are educated enough to know the meaning of queue, blatantly break it for a reason so petty and childish that it makes me want to laugh at their face and ask them to own up their damn insecurities and live in this society. When the petrol bunk guy moved nozzle towards the good looking guy, he stopped and said "She was here first" thumbing in my direction. My scowl dissolved into a smile and I nodded a thanks. He smiled back and nodded. Not all people are bad. Maybe there is still some hope left for this world.
I am working today only because I am not able to tolerate the noiselevel that we have at my house. My mom saw my discomfort with the noise which was steadily increasing my migraine to an unexplored level, she adviced me to go to office. It was a good idea since I know that office was going to be completely empty with few loitering here and there. I am really glad I came to office. I have been here for three hours now and in that time I have managed to squeeze in four hours of work that I get done on a normal weekday, leisurely chatted with friends, writing this blog and hoping to get more work done in next couple of hours. There is no cacophony of ringing phones, extra loud singing cell phones and people generally talking. I had forgotten what it was like to work on a piece of code for an entire day without getting disturbed every fifteen minutes.
A random thought crossed my mind few minutes ago:
There is no grand reason for humans to be on this planet. Abstraction of the reason would be - carry the genes, progress evolution to achieve a balance (or is it perfection?) and die. How does a man contribute to the greatness or for the virtue of this planet anyway? Possibly, there is a degradation of nature rather than uplifting. A man's achievement can somehow be contributed to tainting this environment and the planet more than we can afford to. Humanity might consider inventions in the field of science and technology to be the greatest gift to mankind, but in reality it has the adverse effect on our planet. When a new drug is released which has artificially increased the life expectancy, nature is robbed of selection of the fittest. Nature gets it revenge in mutlitude of formats as it tries to achieve balance. Lessening of humane nature is the biggest price humanity had to pay.