When thoughts lay heavy on mind, then time, almost always, seems at it's slowest. Everything in this world seems trivial when you focus on that one thought, that one need. No one could possibly know how you feel. At that moment, you are truly alone in this world and where no understanding exists. All the other problems that exist in this one life are thrown aside for this one desire...
It drives you through the day and and it drives you through the night. All your thoughts are filled by it. You are completely consumed verging on the sense of obsession. In the mornings it envelops you as the warmth of the sun and in the nights it comes to you in your dreams. Sweet and bitter combined. It makes you want to scream, to cry, to giggle. It gives a whole bunch of emotions in a go.
Thats what I had felt for you.